Awry

Success, Is it ever great?

What is that which defines success? Achieving a goal, a meaningful life, mental satisfaction, beating all the odds, happiness, moksha... or any thing else. We come across many such definitions of success in our lives. Each time life throws us a new challenge and by virtue of living in this constantly ticking world, we some how cross these challenges. If we fair as per our expectations, we call it a personal success. Life is so small. I compared it with earth, its small. I compared it with sky, its even smaller. I compared it with thoughts, it is tiny. Yet, when success arrives, it feels so big. Same is true for failures in lives, isn't?

Call any wise, learned man and ask him to define success. He is give a beautifully ornamented abstract answer which we can appreciate but, never feel. Some say, it is absolute. It is not comparative. By comparing, one only undervalues success. But, if it is true then why do people compare. And if there is no comparison, from where does all this concept of communism, socialism, capitalism arise. If we can feel the success in our lives, why is there so much disparity in our lives. Why is not everybody on same mental level. Why is some body depressed and other more depressed? Buddha says that suffering is common to all and the cause of suffering is ignorance and greed. He further says that to end this suffering there is one way, to cut off on self from ignorance and greed. But, he doesn't say about that thing to which we are ignorant about. He emphasizes on code for moral conduct. But, to me that is a very ideological way of speaking where every thing falls in place and we attain the state of nirvana. I don't know whether it is possible or not to attain the same by his method. He might be right. But, then why is there so much of vices around me. Why did God create something which we should not choose? Just to put us to some kind of test, to judge who fares better among the equals, or to measure the effects of some kind of experiment on us? There are numerous possibilities and there can be numerous explanations. But, no body, neither the Buddha, nor Mahavira, nor Prophet Mohammad, nor Jesus Christ, nor Lord Krishna came back on earth to explain us which way is the best way? People say that all the religions lead to common goal, that is to one God. Or, Forgive me if I sound like a skeptic or an atheist, it may be possible that none of these reach the Supreme. And may be, there is no supreme. There can be any number of possibilities. There is so much confusion in this world.

Where should I go to get answers to such questions. I don't want an abstract answer. I need experience because, what I can't feel is beyond my senses. And, if it is beyond my senses, how will my faith grow stronger in that? Even fear has its own way to touch our senses so that we realize the existence of fear. But, then the other question arises If life is cumulative of our experiences, then where is the conclusion of all this. Is conclusion of life death? If it is, why is death not that much sacred? Why still we believe life is beautiful and glorious.

I don't find answer to these questions. But, I can't stop my self from asking. One more thing, we have put definitions on so many things in our life like objects which we can touch, which we feel and so on. Now, add one more dimension to it -- thoughts. Thinking is the new dimension and thoughts are our arenas. Lets see if we can create an another world in our thoughts or not.

Good night.