Bodh

Limitless sky, a half moon and countless stars... and I sitting on a bench looking at them, willing to capture that moment in my heart so that some day, when I will be tired of my daily routine, I will be able to revisit that. I feel like being too small in this universe but, my thoughts, my emotions, my feelings are more that what I can predict them. I feel like all my sins are washed away in that single moment of solitude and solace. These nights, stars and moon have witnessed thousands of years, may be even more, but, still they never say a single word. They still look towards me with same curiosity. I feel like I am something more than just a combination of flesh, blood and bones. Why don't these walls talk? Why don't they cry like we do? Why is there so much of silence? I ask these questions and feel that is it true that human beings or living beings are special in this world? I want to talk... and all these stars, walls and stones are very good listeners. And for a moment, I feel the importance of having good listeners around me. I don't want answers of all my questions... all I want is somebody who does not reflect but, absorbs all my thoughts.

You are my true friend, you are my companion. Although you seem lifeless to this world, you are just a piece of rock for this world, but, they don't know that life is mortal but, lifeless is immortal. You will be here in this world for millions of years with countless secrets buried in your heart.

I want to capture this moment in my heart but, someday I will not be here in this world and then I will not be able to recall this moment. It is temporary. Being a living object is temporary... I feel jealous to you, to your permanency. You change the form but, you are immortal.

I walk through the lawn and everything is quite, gripped by silence all over the environment as if announcing that "Listen to me O tiny human being, I am the sole ruler of this world... i am the one who is permanent." I feel so relieved, it reminds me of my existence and for that one moment I forget everything, all my deeds, my sins, my virtues. It has got no meaning.