Pictures from Loni

Some pictures during my stay at DSCL Sugar Loni Unit,

Windy thoughts

Wind blows through my sides, giving me realization that I am soaring through these limitless fields. I stand there at mid night facing those empty fields, while half moon smiles over the sky covering those tiny twinkling stars with his blanket of moon light. I raise my head and search for 'Saptarshi', the only thing I recognize in the sky except moon. In my childhood, when I used to sleep on rooftop of my house, I used to look at it for hours. People say that these are DemiGods who guard the doors of heaven. I used to search for heaven through that gate and sometime, when a cloud used to came in that area, a curiosity used to catch my mind. Today, I see it with the same curiosity and it looks so silly to me but, I do not turn away. As usual, it is silent but, I can hear the sound of blowing wind.

Thoughts come to my mind, endless thoughts. I think about my past but, I can't recall much. I can't see myself as child, I don't remember how I used to look in those days, I can't see the colour of my clothes... all I remember is that curiosity, that inquisitveness which is yet present within me. I remember the darkness in streets, the dogs whom I always bewared of, my school gate, empty stairs of my building and then the moon smiling over all of them. I run through those streets and come out on my bicycle that was my only prized posession in those days. It is still there but, there are a few many items which have taken its place. Suddenly, the wind blows again and the chain of thoughts breaks as if the wind has pierced through my body. I leave the thoughts there under the open sky and come back to my room although, I want to stay there.

I try to sleep when Prashant Sir calls me. We discuss many things over the call... silence breaks and the first time in last few days I talk to somebody for over half an hour. After a while I try to sleep but, my mind does not allow me to stop thinking. I think about past, present and future without any motive and keep rolling over the bed. It is 2:30 AM in the morning, and I am still fighting to get a sleep. I have a project review tomorrow but, I have not prepared anything for it. I think about project but, my mind switches over to other topics. I know I have to get a sound sleep so that I can work tomorrow. This goes on till 5 in the morning when my alarm rings. I switch it off and finally falls into sleep.

I wake up and run towards the office, prepapre some data for project. People are gone for lunch, but I still sit here in my office. i don't feel like being hungry but, I am definitely feeling sleepy. The AC is off, fan is blowing hot air over my face and it reminds me of last night's blowing wind.

1344 hrs., DSCL sugar office, Loni, UP

Bodh

Limitless sky, a half moon and countless stars... and I sitting on a bench looking at them, willing to capture that moment in my heart so that some day, when I will be tired of my daily routine, I will be able to revisit that. I feel like being too small in this universe but, my thoughts, my emotions, my feelings are more that what I can predict them. I feel like all my sins are washed away in that single moment of solitude and solace. These nights, stars and moon have witnessed thousands of years, may be even more, but, still they never say a single word. They still look towards me with same curiosity. I feel like I am something more than just a combination of flesh, blood and bones. Why don't these walls talk? Why don't they cry like we do? Why is there so much of silence? I ask these questions and feel that is it true that human beings or living beings are special in this world? I want to talk... and all these stars, walls and stones are very good listeners. And for a moment, I feel the importance of having good listeners around me. I don't want answers of all my questions... all I want is somebody who does not reflect but, absorbs all my thoughts.

You are my true friend, you are my companion. Although you seem lifeless to this world, you are just a piece of rock for this world, but, they don't know that life is mortal but, lifeless is immortal. You will be here in this world for millions of years with countless secrets buried in your heart.

I want to capture this moment in my heart but, someday I will not be here in this world and then I will not be able to recall this moment. It is temporary. Being a living object is temporary... I feel jealous to you, to your permanency. You change the form but, you are immortal.

I walk through the lawn and everything is quite, gripped by silence all over the environment as if announcing that "Listen to me O tiny human being, I am the sole ruler of this world... i am the one who is permanent." I feel so relieved, it reminds me of my existence and for that one moment I forget everything, all my deeds, my sins, my virtues. It has got no meaning.

@ Loni

I arrived here on 12th, 35 KMs away from Shahjahanpur, 1 hr. drive from station on highway and its been almost a week that i have been here. Sometimes frustrated, sometimes lonely, sometimes workaholic... this place has witnessed several shades of my personality in just 6 days. There are only and only farmlands in vicinity and it becomes so lonely and romantic at night, that I start feeling like there are two personalities within me - one who stands there idly and gazes the darkness and the other one who wanders through the open space and does not want to come back.

Sometimes, I regret my choice of summer internship location but, at the same moment it gives me pleasure that it is different, it is abnormal, it is not what people dream about but, it exists and once again a familiar quote rings in my mind "Different is Normal."

1625 hrs. 18th May 2010
DSCL Sugar - Loni, UP

new to excel

MS excel is one such application that I used to hate but, this time it caught me by neck. After spending a few days on it I have started liking it. Just realized how much powerfull this tool is (had my 1st deliverable). Tommorrow night I will have to leave for ShahjahanPur (Loni Plant). Its going to be exciting to be in a village and work on excel and SAP :)

11th may 2010 - 13:25 Hrs. Delhi
Gyan

and it begins!!

It began on 7th May... I mean... Summer internship at DSCL. As predicted, I am not going to stay at Delhi for long. Within a few days, I have to leave for Loni sugar plant. The project is of inventory planning and involvs working on SAP, Excel. Lets see whats more in the box.