Confessions - 1

Rarely do we become ready to confess our secrets. We all have a life that others have not seen but, we have lived those moments. We are scared that if people will come to know all that how will they react? We are afraid that may be they will get to know the other side of us. Is it important to confess? Probably yes, because then only you can be truthful to your life, your own emotions. So, I have decided to confess the other side of me which probably not many have seen. Leaving IIT, I am already heavy with loads of emotions. Above that, there is an interview of Tata Steel on 7th for which I have to study. But, I know if I get selected and join Tata Steel my other side will get burned here only. Probably I will also forget this side of me and get busy with life's affairs. So, I have decided to record or in other words, confess my activities one by one. I know if somebody will read this page he will surely get surprised to know so many abnormal things about me. But, please put your hand on your heart and ask whether you are different from me. I am sure you will forgive me. So here does the list goes on -

- I smoke occasionally. Sometimes 2 - 3 cigarrates in a day when I am really tensed.
- I like beer. I like drinking with friends but, I have never been over drunk as of yet.
- I never had bad feelings for any body for too long. I can't carry it for several days.
- I like to listen to gazals and when I am listening to it I can't do anything else.
- I know some people perceive me as arrogant which I have never tried to portray. Forgive me, if I have hurt of emotions. I never intended to do so.
- I am a bad listener and never understand anything that is taught in classroom.
- I like to run but, more than that I like to 'run-away.' I have never run to achieve something, I have always ran to escape from something.
- I fear darkness.
- I proposed a girl a few months back, She refused the offer. It was difficult for me to take this step but, I am glad that She understood the difficulty and gently refused.
- I always had a crush at each phase of my life. But, I have rarely expressed it fearing She may deny it because I am not smart enough. The same is true for IIT life and this one is different from the one mentioned above ;)
- I hate following religious rituals. But, I want to understand religion. I also want to teach others about whatever I know about religion.
- I appreciate inter caste marriages. Although, I can't do it because of hurting the feelings of my parents.
- I rarely get sound sleeps at nights. Mostly, I am awake and like to sleep in the morning.
- Sometimes, I want others to be like me.
- I disagree with my parents on various point of views but, I just accept them out of respect.
- I am bad in pushing arguments. But, I am good at putting my thoughts.
- I have cried several times watching serious bollywood movies. I hate horror movies and never watch them.
- I have always felt that my house is not big enough so, I rarely invite people at my home. I want to get a big house when I will earn enough.
- I value education more than anything else. This is the best investment in my opinion.
- I cried when India won world cup in 2011.

Some more will follow in next post.