Sitting at airport, waiting to board flight to Hyderabad, I am thinking about contributing something to my blog which I have kept as a memoir of my life and its happenings. Its been a hectinc month since I left IIT K. But, I am satisfied that I lived every moment of this period. And now here I am, about to join Accenture. I don't know which path has been chosen for me as I am still searching for alternatives. Once I had this thinking in mind that the day I would join Accenture I would leave the hope of finding peace elsewhere and would try to adjust myself in those circumstances. But, look at this moment where I have also applied for PhD and eagerly waiting for things to turn out in otherwise manner.
In the afternoon, I was taking a quick nap in my brother's apartment in Kolkata when I got a dream. I was feeling as if somebody was striking nails in my body and I woke up immediately. Since then, I am thinking whether It is good to join Accenture (for sake any IT company away from your home) or not. Only time has answer to these questions. I could sense the smell of hot coffee and see the glitter of those costly shops when I entered airport. It was the same smell, same fabulous lighting which I left two years back. It reminded of the corridors of my working area at cognizant. How captivating it is? I sense money, power and greed in it. I feel terrified because I know in longer run it will kill me slowly. Look at me, I don't have a permanent home to live in but, I travel by air. How ironical it is, doesn't it?
On TV screen, I see news about Baba Ramdev breaking his Satyagrah because the government didn't agree to his demands. The next moment an advertisement is shown about a music DVD of 2012, which is supposed to save one from the natural calamity. Look at how fearful this world has become because of our own ambitions. Would you like to raise your children in this fearful, terrifying world? I won't. I like it to be free, full of optimism not the way it is being manipulated around us.
Life has come to full circle. 19th June, I resigned from last job - 13th job, I am about to join a new hell. I fear it may not be a correct decisions but, I will wait till the sun shines on the horizon.
Gyan
